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April 22nd
2015
I wake up to most of the French guys shuffling about, getting ready for the day. Bags loudly zipping open and closed can be heard from occasion, and the semi-soft murmuring of undeciphered French. “Time for more sleep” I think, and get back to it. That's how I wish it went down. Instead, I threw myself over the edge of the top bunk and started my day. Things on the docket: buy a couple items the
Neeeerrrd! |
Bizarre Art |
Andy’s gone now. The vacancies made by my friends leaving have been filled by either French or Italians who don’t speak very much english. I decided to do work. Boring, down day where I’m surrounded by people, yet feel isolated. I feel a kind of a directionless anger, which I can’t quite pin down, but I think it’s because it reminds me of how things felt near the end of the Fall, beginning of Winter. I feel poor, unable to accept offers of adventure because it, and I’m not sure if I'll even have enough to survive 'til the end of this brief stint in the country. Worse, I feel like I'm at a standstill*; the things that I need to feel like I'm moving forward are difficult or temporarily out of reach at the moment. For me, these things are: learning, physical exercise, and taking steps toward my goals. In time, I'll be able to get back to them all, but this feeling is inevitable from time to time while in a foreign country with no solid supports. It will pass, though this is the second time it's reared its fugly head. On a brighter note, Nichole and Yuzu are coming back in the morning! Just one more hurdle: this stupid-ass first aid course I signed up for has an online component that needs to be done tonight.
A woman choking a crying-boy mask |
At the grave, we manage to push the car up a hill (with the help of a random passerby) to a more level plane, hoping it will help to feed the engine with fuel. This doesn’t fix the problem. I know nothing about engines (we don't even have the type this car used), leaving me to lean back and listen to the Australian gentlemen discuss what might be wrong with the car, and what to do. This, in itself, is pretty entertaining for me still. We spend a couple hours doing this and that to no avail, push the car to a spot where we can leave it overnight, and return to the hostel around 10pm.
I don't even know, and I looked at this one for a while |
At about 1:30am, I finally finish (2h 20min) and watch an episode of Daredevil before passing out in the moist, heaving box.
Note: The people in the room are all very nice, I should say, I just think it’s funny to describe it that way (also, I only have a 2'x3' patch of ground to keep my stuff on.)
*: Yes, I realize the irony in feeling like I'm not going anywhere despite having travelled to the opposite side of the planet.
The Crew |
*: Yes, I realize the irony in feeling like I'm not going anywhere despite having travelled to the opposite side of the planet.
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